have you ever felt very small

have you ever felt very small
felt injured
you ever felt like something was wrong?
somethin had happened and you'd taken a blow
and you needed to just crawl away for a bit?
you ever felt like youve been struck
and you need to heal up
before you can get back on stage
the injuries can be severe
the people around can do bad things
they can harm you
and it can be hard to heal
but its good to throw yourself into the mix
if only to know what to avoid
to strengthen your resolve
and to make sure that youre doing the right thing
to know that someones watching you from every angle
and to know how to make it through that sort of watch
the british lend a hand in these situations
theyre designed to function under the pressure
without these abilities you cant do it
and definately with music i lean heavily on the british side
met a couple people so far
lesbian and a bipolar kid, and a new guy in town
everybodys seekin somethin to complete themselves
and what am i
kid without friends?
havin been isolated for years?
fearful and tryin to get back into it?
hard workin
but easily dissuaded
what am i?
dunno
but its easier to put labels on other people
and its also interesting to hear the labels that're put on me
but its better to live oblivious of those labels other people put on you
the label i put on myself is a bit more flexible
in fact i would say im probably capable of anything
not limited by anything
from many places
roots in both the east and west
passports to go where i want
in a position of privaledge
but also of servitude to people
coming from a family of people who serve the people
these are the sorts of things that can really make or break a person
i wont say that im completely without fear
that would be a lie
but perhaps the ability to do something with the knowledge of existing fear
you could probably call that courage
and then perhaps i could call myself courageous
these fuckin kids
kirby, sean, paul, vivek,
all these kids tryin to tell me what to do
and me lookin for someone to tell me
me needing them
and i guess them needing me
but being in a position like that
i learned to exist on my own
you cant function dependant all the time
if those you depend on are removed from the situation
you have to learn to be self - dependant
if you cant do it yourself then you crawl away and die
and its the adaptations that i made when i was alone that serve me well now
and i guess in a sense thats why i understand the appalacian people
and i guess thats how i understand the american people
certainly isolation is key to the frontier experience
in england youre never allowed to be alone
privacy is a kind of thing that is a valued commodity
in america privacy's the norm
spending some intimate time with somebody's a rarity
and so people end up needing people
as an extra thing, a personal development
to kinda fill the void that society leaves
americas based upon survival
all those extra things are left to the people