the attention i got from the junkie while neglected

the attention i got from the junkie while neglected
seemed to mend the wounds i picked up over years
and i found in the eyes of a terrible indie girl
the compassion that drove me to tears
but she was closed off and could never give me what i wanted
she cuold only offer her half ass try and being a decent friend
and the best she could do was offer to sleep with me perhaps i'd be happy
and when she lead to my friends death then that was indeed the end
she wore cool clothes much better than mine and i felt those were impressive
kirby saw her and heard too and he seemed to be quite interested
she met vivek at his apartment on high street and they seemed to get along well
but after she gave him the number of a dealer i'd be happy to see her arrested
she was a junkie i know because she shot up in front of me
vivek had sworn never to do that he felt it was bad company
she asked me to sleep with her and a man which was weird
in the end she seemed to run from me
love seemed to be too powerful for her
she was used to other emotions from people
and when she got that from me she couldn't handle it
she never believed in church steeples
i met her recently in 2008
she seemed to be like a hippy
i was surprised how burned out and tired she seemed
but i was glad to see her looking at me
i drove again down to her house but i ran into damien
he keeps her in his place it seems behind a lock and key
and i was surprised when he promised to meet me outside but didn't
it seemed he was living in 2006 his own self made fantasy
i wasnt trying to get into her pants any longer she'd killed my friend
and we'd put that behind us no longer a problem i just wanted to see her again
but the guy seemed to think it was his job to keep me far far away
and i felt quite made sitting in the car with kirby as i decided to drive away
kirby seemed to be all freaked out and i was laughing at his weakness
the guy had beaten up a person before for doing something he didn't believe in
and here he was trying to get me to be the bigger man
although he's tall he's never done that he's a fool considering where he's been
but the girl always seemed to have a hold over me it was always very sexual
and maybe i felt she liked me too i was always in search of attention
she listened to me and even liked the music that i played
but in the end she left me for him in a massive relationship defection
so i blacklisted her in my mind though it hasnt been until now ive thought her evil
after all she gave vivek a number that got him to the pills that got him killed
and she tried to console herself upon my breast when he died
and i cant believe i wasted my time listening as she sat there and cried.