they kept me under their thumb

they kept me under their thumb
and i took would i could get
i was a desperate son
continued on without regret
these people snubbed me
and left me for dead
but that didn't phase me
bad thoughts leave my head
these are my friends
they're all i can get
in the end
never forget
so i'd usher bad thoughts
away from my head
even though we often fought
and i knew it was dead
i pushed it anyway
cause i needed things too
and i think i got used in the same way
creeps are fools
but something happened
i woke up
when the vivek death impacted
i suddenly gave more of a fuck
no longer being told
no longer kept at bay
i wasn't getting sucked into the fold
this was going to be my day
and so i moved far
and wrote much
i drove by car
open mics and such
met a girl
whose with me today
she rocked my world
i feel lovely this way
and ill keep seeking
to live complete
through curtains i was peaking
now its time for me to speak
the stage is waiting
the crowd is eager
its the day ive anticipating
its taken forever