the past was shit

the past was shit
the kid was destructive
he'd kill us all
thats what the drugs did
gave me some stuff
and let me out
the ambulence came
took me on the ER route
woke up in sheets
shit taken away
didnt know where i was
not a good day
kid later told me
he watched them do it
didnt say shit
didnt move a bit
just watched and sat
while they took
my fucked up self
that morning i was shook
yelled at by doctors
trying to scare
telling me to be
careful there
that i was gone
and nearly dead
that they'd watched me go
inside my head
and that they
were worried for
my life at hand
i guess the word war
that i faced then
from the dude
was meant to scare
didn't mind if he was rude
i was half out
and getting yelled at
missed me off
and that was that
scolded by doctors
in white gowns
left me scared
and home with a frown