an interesting position draft#1

this is kinda weird for me
ive got a broken heart
but ive got a smile here
it doesnt hurt alot

the girl she calls and we have talks
and think about the past
we try to make sense of it all
and let it rest at last

but i dont know why this is this
i dont get why we did it bad
but that seems to be how we are
i dont seem to know why it is

we talk on phones nad have our words
and talk about the past
the girl is pissing me off now
she's really fuckin obsessed

she tells me she wants to talk now
and says ill call you back
she makes me wait and i get mad
and leave the room instead

we go back and forth on this shit
we try to find a ground
a place where we can stop ourselves
and get to lost and found

this is the way we do our thing
its sortof weird i know
but as we make our way through this
the pain does tend to grow

and as the pani increases then
the tolerance goes up too
and i learn lessons through confessions
thats got me through

i sit through this and think about
all the wretched years
we pulled our hair and didnt care
we truely had no fears

but such was that / doomed to fail
we didn't know much
but we continued on woefully
held up by a crutch

we didnt know anything at all we just sat by and whined
and if thats all we had then thats the way we passed our time
and if it seems so strange to you then fuck off and get bent
we'll drink our booze and continue through the way we've always meant
i loved this girl more than the world and it shone quite clear
i love her deep and loved her dear but now we're spread and done
its always hard when you split up but this one was the worst
i loved her to the ends of tiem and ended up burst

but this is how we make our way
we fight until the dawn of day
and find out how we can survive
and then we'll grow and finally thrive

we fought each other so damn hard with bloody knuckled fists
we pushed our way through night and day and continued throgh the mists
we didnt know where we were then and we just forged ahead
we just took ourselves and pushed on forth through the undead

we never knew what we were through
we just pushed on instead
we never looked back, fuck that place
we just continued instead

i loved her dear she loved me too we fought against ourselves
we tried to push our way through this but it just exploded instead
we found ourselves walking away and it was painful too
we didn't know what we were going to fucking do
but as we sat upon the edge we talked and toed the pool
we felt ourselves falling instead into the world gloom
so we pushed ourselves and found our way through all the brakc and brine
we managed tofight until we found a better place and time
it kept us strong and kept us good we knew we'd find it soon
we fought each other mother daugther son and father too