cerebral

cerebral
we're on the edge today
we don't know what we're going to do
we're on the edge
we're in the hole
sitting in bed
mind smashed open and heart crushed
we're on the verge
we're on the edge
everythings collapsing
but we push on
we fight with the strength of all that we've seen and been
we are the sum of everything that came before us
that which drives us is within our soul
inherent the will to survive
we push through teh difficulty with dignity and class
as we find something nearby that makes everything make sense
we are fighting for meaning and for footing
the place ahead is murky but its better than this hole
and we want to find better ways to get ourselves out of this daze
we're stuck in the murk and grime as inside we just can't make it through
its a weird setup but we still have heart
and with a drink we have our moment
the time is right and we strive forward
everything makes sense
and we're making it do what needs done
and we don't let ourselves become run out without any
we'll make it to the place where we can do whats necessary
you can't hate just respect and appreciate
allow yourself to open up to other people while also maintaining your inner steeple
you are your people and you fight through the bullshit
and its better to allow yourself ot open up and experienceit
don't let yourself get taken over but instead allow yourself to experience
move through life and make certain your path is what you want it to be
life offers itself to you and you need to make something of the plate
the seizure necessary and something inevitable if you know whats best
you might instead fight it off and be by yourself
but you might find that if you allow yourself to let certain thinsg into your life
you might find happiness and equilibrium
choose your fights well
because each one takes alot out of you
you can't fight forever
and if you fight everything you will never win
so choose your fights wisely
make sure you don't waste your time
it's all improtant to make sure that you can get out
and if you can't then give out a shout
you will get help and thats all important
but if you don't bother to do anything then you'll be out

an interesting position draft#1

this is kinda weird for me
ive got a broken heart
but ive got a smile here
it doesnt hurt alot

the girl she calls and we have talks
and think about the past
we try to make sense of it all
and let it rest at last

but i dont know why this is this
i dont get why we did it bad
but that seems to be how we are
i dont seem to know why it is

we talk on phones nad have our words
and talk about the past
the girl is pissing me off now
she's really fuckin obsessed

she tells me she wants to talk now
and says ill call you back
she makes me wait and i get mad
and leave the room instead

we go back and forth on this shit
we try to find a ground
a place where we can stop ourselves
and get to lost and found

this is the way we do our thing
its sortof weird i know
but as we make our way through this
the pain does tend to grow

and as the pani increases then
the tolerance goes up too
and i learn lessons through confessions
thats got me through

i sit through this and think about
all the wretched years
we pulled our hair and didnt care
we truely had no fears

but such was that / doomed to fail
we didn't know much
but we continued on woefully
held up by a crutch

we didnt know anything at all we just sat by and whined
and if thats all we had then thats the way we passed our time
and if it seems so strange to you then fuck off and get bent
we'll drink our booze and continue through the way we've always meant
i loved this girl more than the world and it shone quite clear
i love her deep and loved her dear but now we're spread and done
its always hard when you split up but this one was the worst
i loved her to the ends of tiem and ended up burst

but this is how we make our way
we fight until the dawn of day
and find out how we can survive
and then we'll grow and finally thrive

we fought each other so damn hard with bloody knuckled fists
we pushed our way through night and day and continued throgh the mists
we didnt know where we were then and we just forged ahead
we just took ourselves and pushed on forth through the undead

we never knew what we were through
we just pushed on instead
we never looked back, fuck that place
we just continued instead

i loved her dear she loved me too we fought against ourselves
we tried to push our way through this but it just exploded instead
we found ourselves walking away and it was painful too
we didn't know what we were going to fucking do
but as we sat upon the edge we talked and toed the pool
we felt ourselves falling instead into the world gloom
so we pushed ourselves and found our way through all the brakc and brine
we managed tofight until we found a better place and time
it kept us strong and kept us good we knew we'd find it soon
we fought each other mother daugther son and father too

i will fight til i get where i want

i will fight til i get where i want
ll never give up and ill always try
ill be good and i swear that i wont be shit
cause ive got the goodness in my soul

ill be fighting until i get to what is worth
and that will be my end
i will be content, i will stop the fight
i will sit and enjoy the world

i will make sure that i will try to compete
i will make sure that they won't win
they will try to bring me down, they act like im some clown
but in the end i swear i'll win

they think they'll pull me down
but instead they'll just frown
'cause i won't submit to their shitty ends
it'll take them by surprise
i'll get them in their eyes
'cause they won't see me coming then.

i'll just make sure im good
i'll just run this whole hood
'cause im feeling good and they don't stand a chance
it's just kindof fuckin strange
that the world is of this age
and i'm really feeling restless in my soul

i'm just standing fucking tall
as the wind begins to call
and the sky turns black and clear
as i walk about the streets
and walk past the drunken packs
it'll keep my nose clean thinking bout the end

ill just keep on moving up
as the people tend to suck
and ill find a better place to end up
there's so many bastards here
they just make themselves clear
and i'll just skip over every one and say

ive seen many fuckin wars
and ive been here before
ive just never thought id be back again
ive come back to these old streets
and ive talked to old peeps
they just keep be tangled up in this old place

ive just fought another war
with another fuckin whore
and ive found myself lost again
this town dies at fuckin four
i really want some more
but that is the it this is the end

now im studying all my work
and im working fuckin hard
just to try and make some sense
of this old fuckin guard
as they work on their own ways
they enshrine the good old days
and it really sees quite
to me

but ive fought with all the weirds
and they remark about beards
as they dont have any fortitude themselves
theyre in awe of my style
it'll take them all awhile
jsut to get to where i am - thems the breaks

but as i sit on my chair
and i imagine everywhere
all the dark and danced up dresses of the girls
bagels and gyros over here
as the crowd becomes clear
these are midnight dwellers communing in the night

the dead black is thick
and the shots are strong
as we take our hits and move on to the bar
there's another place next door
lets go there and get some more
shots on me so no excuses lets drink more

as we get to our place
you seem to ruin the place
and ill say youre a fuckin annoyin one
you waset all our fuckin time
and you sit back and whine
and expect us to take in your briny shit

but i reckon you dont think
that i'd really call your stink
and its messin with my mind fuckin fool
just shut off that fuckin racket
lets just get on with our stroll
let adventures unfold before ourselves

this is our fucked up town
and the people are so strange
revealing dresses and parted hair
designer fuckin clothes
and yoga regimines
workin out to show of muscles for the girlsi

work in progress #2

look at me
im feelin free
youre so good
good to me
im so big
entirely
full of shit
you dont seem to care so
im feelin good
as you so should
we'll be fine and
ill be free
you'l be OK
we'll be perfect
don't worry
you'll see

here we are
under stars
you're ok
i'm OK
we'll be fine
don't worry, babe
you're inspirin
you're eyes are sparklin
we'll be fine, i swear
it's contagious
that smile you have
we'll be good I swear

now its clear
celebrate
we'll be fine
that's our fate
don't worry
it's not our time
we'll be glowing*
time is flowing
you know me
i'll agree
we'll be floating
song is going
celebrate the feel

here we are
don't worry
under stars
ccompletely free
don't look down
we're high up
don't be worrying*
don't be hurrying*
this is our time to stand**
it's contagious
that smile you have
changes worlds and minds...

dont forget
you'll be fine
it's ok
it's alright
thing's are strange
you'll be fine
**don't lose faith girl
it's a strange world
you'll be OK
I swear...
**times are changing
life is bending
don't lose hope
you'll be fine

we're ok
sun is here
new days dawn
has apeared
swept away
don't forget
**you'll be fine girl
don't lose your mind
don't let doctors
scare you
fight your way through
don't lose your soul
you'll be OK
i swear

now its fine
doctors here
you'll be cool
its all clear
don't get worried
it's alright
**don't be frightened
they're helping out
you'll be OK, i swear
**it's contagious
that smile on your face
you'll be fine, i swear

here we are
moment of truth
there they are
comin for you
don't be scared
you'll be safe
**its ok girl
don't let it change your world
you'll be ok
i swear
its a strange thing
dont let it hurt
it should be OK

here we are
its alright
momentary dip
you'll be fine

in progress

sitting on the ground, our gathering place (we talk with friends and plot our race)
in the sky above, so many bright lights (we count the starts and bid them good night)
astronomers in college, so full of themselves (they talk about the worlds certain end)
depressing sods, religious fools (they need to chill out and bend the rules)

bums begging for change, i dont have any money (and if i had some i'd just buy a beer)
i'd buy a beer and suggest the same for them (but I won't buy them one that's not why i came here)
my local brew pub stood the test of time (the legendary high street addition)
scarlet and grey to drink and play (a barfight and cop cars a permanent fixture)

an epic performance we had our fun (the people bobbed heads and cheers were earned)
we played our set written on whiskey reciepts (hastily written before our go)
the ground was shaken we stomped and danced (we caused a scene and cops were called)
drink your beers and laugh this is the end (dont go home sad, we had our fun)

for those who linger, poor souls without friends (quite and covered but hearts full of gold)
the town is empty and a noble pursuit (so go for a walk and take a look)
the night is thick with blanketing darkness (the best time to roam without fear)
whipping air cold reminds of englands weather of old (one day ill return and sample that wind)

our town is our playground in the night-time (we have our fun from day until night)
we are the players enjoying every move (the game is afoot and adventures abrew)
we roam around freely the blessing of our nation (walk without fear a wonderful thing)
without hesitation exploring and taking roads where they go (you never know where you'll end up bro)

walking up concrete block by block (the mechanical nature of construction)
looking at trees older than hell (generations of man died while it grew)
looking at buildings concrete and tall (our fixation points and lights of the city)
listening to the breeze a whispering lullaby (singing us to sleep as we walk and sigh)

ride on your bikes whipping air a beauty (ride through the stream and race through the air)
through empty streets at the right time (when people are gone and roads are bare)
rocks and pebbles bumping wheels the roads uneven (we never said it was luxery)
riding away from night until day (we make our way through the city lights)

through the streets of our fair city (so old and grand and new all the same)
glide through the air as it whips around (and let yourself listen to the whipping sound)
people are sleeping, lying in beds (tired as hell from jobs worked hard)
on the bare streets, never know where you'll go (thats the adventure of the open road)